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SEASONS GREETINGS & MERRY XMAS TO ALL :)

IF YOU'RE SMILING & IN A BRIGHT 'XMAS'Y MOOD DO NOT READ THIS. CLOSE THIS TAB/SCREEN IMMEDIATELY

so. you're been stupid enough to read the following huh.

well firstly. xmas wasn't so 'xmas'y this year. isn't xmas meant to give you a warm coozy feeling inside of family n love, the being of 'togetherness' sitting around as a family, the feeling of laughter n enjoyment from company of others, or the excitement of friends n christmas carols blissing in the air? err i wouldn't say i received none of the feelings above. or perhaps all of the above just wasn't what i was looking for.

i have this peculiar feeling i'm going insane. yes i'm going insane on xmas n new years. not the type of insanity where i go n drink party my night away. not the type of insanity where i lock myself in a room either. just this feeling of 'something'. 'something' rather so remarkable that no matter how hard i try or convince myself, it just won't escape my mind. it literally links to almost anything i see. even if it so only vaguely links to it. i've tried. perhaps whoever is reading this is confused of what i am talking about. its not really necessary to know. come to think of it perhaps it can apply to several things in my life this very moment. but i spose, whoever does read this (stupid enough) knows what i am talking about anyhow.

but my point is, i bloody miss it. perhaps its what i want for christmas.

see. told you i'm going insane.