+insanity

SEASONS GREETINGS & MERRY XMAS TO ALL :)

IF YOU'RE SMILING & IN A BRIGHT 'XMAS'Y MOOD DO NOT READ THIS. CLOSE THIS TAB/SCREEN IMMEDIATELY

so. you're been stupid enough to read the following huh.

well firstly. xmas wasn't so 'xmas'y this year. isn't xmas meant to give you a warm coozy feeling inside of family n love, the being of 'togetherness' sitting around as a family, the feeling of laughter n enjoyment from company of others, or the excitement of friends n christmas carols blissing in the air? err i wouldn't say i received none of the feelings above. or perhaps all of the above just wasn't what i was looking for.

i have this peculiar feeling i'm going insane. yes i'm going insane on xmas n new years. not the type of insanity where i go n drink party my night away. not the type of insanity where i lock myself in a room either. just this feeling of 'something'. 'something' rather so remarkable that no matter how hard i try or convince myself, it just won't escape my mind. it literally links to almost anything i see. even if it so only vaguely links to it. i've tried. perhaps whoever is reading this is confused of what i am talking about. its not really necessary to know. come to think of it perhaps it can apply to several things in my life this very moment. but i spose, whoever does read this (stupid enough) knows what i am talking about anyhow.

but my point is, i bloody miss it. perhaps its what i want for christmas.

see. told you i'm going insane.

+sleep

final day of work. tbh i must agree with you that sitting in an office is mundanely boring, perhaps even jail-like. these last 3 days really turned me off in being an lawyer. accountant. finance person. perhaps anything remotely sitting on a desk pushing papers. yes the chair is big and comfy. yes the view is awersome. but. its flipping boring. the only flip side to this is really the money. but i shouldn't be the one complaining, come to think of it, my dad & the rest of my family live like this for a living. i really need to break this culture of sitting @ desks working. -.-

anyways monday's dinner was rather interesting.i got there an hour late, because my boss felt like it i spose. ( i got off work an hour late). however funny thing was tiff sat next to tanya. n karen sat next to nicole. when i arrived marverick literally shook his head. but @ least some gathering is better than no gathering right?....

holidays so far really have been a bit unpredictable, this i expected didn't quite occur. & things i thought would go away. is still there when my mind is still. & there isn't really much i don't miss about school really. hmm interesting.

+err

yeaa. guess where i am now. yes indeed i am sitting in an office desk @ morgan stanely hong kong. a place where you need a security card swipe to even go to the toilet. (in fact the lift doesn't have buttons, you can only get to your floor with your card. how sad's that) yea shut up, i'm meant to be working, packing boxes, filing etc. but hey. i have a hot mocha next to me & my boss has gone to get one too, so why not post a blog @ the same time. :) anyhow. finally back in hong kong. so glad. flipping missed everything. shanghai was cold. boring. haven't gotten any work done. i suck i noe. oh & if you were wondering where's cici. er there was only one spot available so ssshhh.
mini get-together tonight for all ggs ppl in hk. err that's 9 i think. but yeaa i feel so old -.- being in a office, sipping on a coffee, meeting friends after =.= but anyhow i get paid so its all good.

last but not least, REPLY MY EMAIL or post something!!!! hope you're enjoying your time in the us. enjoying a white xmas. dun get too fat with the xmas food k. haha. i'm stuck in a office for 2 more days ;P

+yes

ah yes. finally done n overr........
last night @ around 1 i somewhat decided to write some angry email. so much anger when i read it this morning i was surprised i didn't do something stupid to go along with it.
which then was complemented by a shit day n mood n a good long lecture by mitch telling me to clean my desk although there was purely nothing on it.
so.
yes last day of school tmr.
i just don't feel the excitement of vacation.

add on:
THANKS MANIFOLD. SWITCH ON THE BARBIE. SWITCH ON THE MUSIC.
WE GONNA PARTY TONIGHT!!!

+almost

almost almost there. i can feel the relief. i can feel sense the reality of the results coming to smack me right in the face.
o well. holidays are coming. more work.

+thanks

· Suicide is man's way of telling God, "You can't fire me - I quit."

· My classmates and I thought about revolting against math but decided we wouldn't have the numbers

· If you smacked a kid in the face with a bottle of Johnson's No More Tears, would it create beautiful irony?

· Imagine there were no hypothetical situations.

· Light travels faster than sound. That's why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

· I was standing in the park wondering why frisbees got bigger as they get closer. Then it hit me.

+weekend

Plan for this weekend:

1. Sleep.

2.Revise

3. Repeat step 1.

i must add in the component of eating.but not relevant really.

i feel exhausted.

+peace

look closer. what's coming next?